In the weeks leading up to a trip, I fantasize about being organized and calm but inevitably life throws me curve ball after curve ball. My inner voice says stay on schedule no matter what, go to yoga, go to bed on time, go to the climbing gym, get up and run.....but it never works out that way.....I usually sleep less than I need, there are things that just need to get done and I let yoga and climbing fall by the way side, I run but never as far as I hoped... by the time the trip arrives I am really ready to go....I get cranky and emotional....I struggle with knowing; do I need the trip or has the trip itself caused me to create a situation from which I need to flee....& fast!!!
The whole thing makes me giggle!
And here it is...a few days to go...this is my favorite time. I love the day or two before I leave for a long vacation. I delight in checking items off my to do list, knowing as each item is crossed off I am that much closer to the unknown adventure ahead. I lay out my clothes, I check and re-check that I actually have a plane ticket going to the right city, on the right day. I remind myself that although I have made arrangements, it's entirely possible that when I get to Guatemala City Saturday night, no one will be there to pick me up and I won't have a place to stay. I love that I have narrowed everything down to the essentials and that everything I need for the next month fits on my coffee table (or in a small backpack). I just love the not knowing and the absolute need to let go of all and any control that I want to believe I have..... too bad I can't be here in my head in the weeks leading up to the trip!
This is the second time I am leaving for a trip the weekend of Thanksgiving. I become one of millions flying and traveling, most to and from family..... in the rush of leaving I am hoping I will have the ability to stop for a moment to think about what I am thankful for...the wonderful people in my life, the ability to fall down and get back up again, being loved for all of who I am, each and every moment, kindness, forgiveness, re-invention and my dogs (of course!!). I am thankful that I am with a partner who recognizes that my need to travel and go away is not about leaving him, but about taking care of me. I am thankful for his love, respect, partnership, his ability to make me laugh and not take myself too seriously....(we are still working on that one :))
........I am thankful for each and everyone of you who have walked into my life and taught me a little something about the world around me, steered me along the path that I am on.... and have, be it indirectly or directly, led me to this very moment in time and the AWESOME ADVENTURE that awaits me in my life (and tomorrow)!!
The whole thing makes me giggle!
And here it is...a few days to go...this is my favorite time. I love the day or two before I leave for a long vacation. I delight in checking items off my to do list, knowing as each item is crossed off I am that much closer to the unknown adventure ahead. I lay out my clothes, I check and re-check that I actually have a plane ticket going to the right city, on the right day. I remind myself that although I have made arrangements, it's entirely possible that when I get to Guatemala City Saturday night, no one will be there to pick me up and I won't have a place to stay. I love that I have narrowed everything down to the essentials and that everything I need for the next month fits on my coffee table (or in a small backpack). I just love the not knowing and the absolute need to let go of all and any control that I want to believe I have..... too bad I can't be here in my head in the weeks leading up to the trip!This is the second time I am leaving for a trip the weekend of Thanksgiving. I become one of millions flying and traveling, most to and from family..... in the rush of leaving I am hoping I will have the ability to stop for a moment to think about what I am thankful for...the wonderful people in my life, the ability to fall down and get back up again, being loved for all of who I am, each and every moment, kindness, forgiveness, re-invention and my dogs (of course!!). I am thankful that I am with a partner who recognizes that my need to travel and go away is not about leaving him, but about taking care of me. I am thankful for his love, respect, partnership, his ability to make me laugh and not take myself too seriously....(we are still working on that one :))
........I am thankful for each and everyone of you who have walked into my life and taught me a little something about the world around me, steered me along the path that I am on.... and have, be it indirectly or directly, led me to this very moment in time and the AWESOME ADVENTURE that awaits me in my life (and tomorrow)!!
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